.: Live like there's no tomorrow :.

killing time!

2004-11-08T06:00:39Z

had a long day today, i came to rosario to watch a hockey match and im so fucking tired... today hasnt been my day tho... i had fun after all. Im just waiting for my bus to come.. well i'll have a long long wait.. it's 2.40am and i leave at 5am.. i need a huge cup of coffee RIGHT NOW.
When i arrive to buenos aires i have to grab the books and im not on the mood. If i do well on the exams i'll go home soon which is great cuz im missing home way too much.
Im just trying to keep myself awake and i dont know what the hell i am doing writing down here... anyway.. havent been here for a while sooo.. still some news to update.
Well i broke up with lucas, and i feel good after all... it's been hard and there's not a single day in which i dont think about him, but im fine.. we could finally let go and im ok, this is what i needed for sure. Sometimes it feels weird - my life has changed so much in a few months. I dont know if this is part of growing up or it is just how things are and this is how life gets on its own evolution.... the only thing i know is that it feels weird.
If this is part of growing up, then i dont want to grow up anymore... or at least not this fast. I've become more and more worried about things, i dont laugh that much (i used to laugh all the time and simile and tell stupid jokes...well those i still do), i cry with no reason almost everynight... it feels weird that i cant argue with my brothers and mom anymore, it feels so fucking weird not to wake up and see alanis face every single evening... i miss home, that's all.
and if this is part of how things are supposed to be... then i face them and survive (well its not THAT bad...but its hard). I survive cuz there're also positive things too... i feel good when i do well at uni and somehow makes me feels proud and i think i make my parents feel proud of me too... that's what i came to do here and i have to do it right. I feel good to share my days with friends and talk and argue and etc. I feel good to be (half)independant from my parents and take care of myself... ANYWAY.... i have to go now :P talk to you soon!! love to all...

almost lula

end of vacation

2004-08-15T16:20:54Z

it's cold, rainy, broke up with my bf, dad's gonna have a baby, today im leaving my town, lucas just called me and told me he fought last nite with someone and needs to talk to me (again), i'll miss my walls, my mom, my pc, my town, my ppl, my couch... i have a headache... i'm sick of this week.

back in here

2004-07-29T18:52:28Z

these long days off couldnt have been more confussing...it's just i have nothing to do more than thinking and finally getting into that place which we feared about
finding ourselves so different from the other... tired of hearing you are trying your best just cuz of me and my future (with you), tired of hearing comparisons of our styles of life

why can't I just be less yours?
I would go on questioning (no one but me) like this till I fill the paper up...

lula_arg @ 2004-03-28T15:58:00

2004-03-28T19:22:28Z

let's be silent... just for one second and i'll find my peace.

stuck

2004-03-02T03:33:16Z

yeah i know i havent updated for months now...
my life goes on as i imagined it would... im so in love, i think i found the man of my life, the man i'd get married to, the man i'd have children with... and now he is gone and there's just too much space between us, and this is hurting me so much.
Well... and beyond that hearth thing, me and my two best friends have to move to buenos aires... take some stuff from here, and buy some things there...so much work to do, and it stresses me out :P

im bored now... see you all later

uPdaTing

2004-01-13T05:55:52Z

hey there! how r ya all doin? well im doing very well, im enjoying my last vacay season. Mich and Luli came here to visit me :) but they're leaving tomorrow already :(
well i think now i'll go to sleep...
love u all!

lu

this year brought...

2003-12-31T22:21:17Z

to my life... new dreams, new friends, new experiences... love, much love... more than i could've ever imagined. This year gave me free time to do what i really love doing. This year was the best of my life so far.

to the world... war, starvation, crisis, depression, tragedies, death... this year sucked in the international context... we're all going down. What the hell is going on with u George? Saddam?... ur both rubbish.

Now a lil msg to some of you:

-chichis: las adoro, nunca dejen de soñar... no se olviden de las que nos vamos... las voy a super extrañar!!

-la promo: a ustedes manga de atorrantes los re quiero... seguramente nos encontremos en laboulaye en alguna que otra ocasión... QUE AÑO TETÉ...QUE AÑO DE LA PUTA MADRE CARAJO!!! AGUANTE LA PROMO LOCOOOO!!

-lu: nos vemos la semana que viene... :P ya sabes que te quiero y te deseo lo mejor de lo mejor.

-nat: boluda este año cumpliste un sueño... en este que se viene vamos a cumplir el otro querés? sos lo mas chanch! te quedo muto.

-mich: thank you for all that you've done... thank you for making my dream come true and believe in 'dreaming'. hey fucker see you next week! I love you.

-annie: the murderer... god im still alive! it was great to meet you annette, hope to see you in 2004 too.

-mer: el año que viene vamos a tocar juntas no? jejeje... sos re capa mer!! feliz año para vos y tu flia!!

-mari: babe! you so fucking rock! you know you are great... begin this year with your possitive energy and have a lot of fun girl! dont forget to save money for your ticket to argentina ;) luv u a lot!

-jose: donde estuviste corazón? jaja te super quiero jose... espero que en este año encuentres al amor que tanto buscás jejeje... y gracias....mil... por tus consejos.

-all reading this:

I've learned...
that when you're in love, it shows
that being kind is more important than being right
that no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to laugh with.
that under everyone's hard shell there is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.
that to turn a blind eye to the facts does not change them.
that love, no time, heals all wounds.
that no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.
that I can't choose how I feel,
but I can choose what to do about it.
that everyone wants to live on top of the mountain,
but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it.
that life should be lived one day at a time.
that you can achieve so many of the things you can imagine...
It only requires one condition:
NEVER STOP DREAMING YOUR DREAMS

I wish you all the best...

much love

Lula

haPpY bDay!

2003-11-08T04:19:41Z

today's my godson bday!!!! yay! he's growing up so quickly... he's turned 6 already!!
happy bday sweetheart, luv u a lot

this weird thing

2003-11-07T16:00:28Z

back home :)

2003-11-05T17:19:54Z

after a 4000 km trip, Im back home. Tired but ...in peace with myself.

I've been spending some days with my best friends (and lucas too btw)... very far away from where I live... and I learnt a lot. Now I am aware of what I have... and what I dont have. OMG, there's so much love to give, and so much love to recieve.

It was beautiful... me walking alone, such a hot day, a very poor school. And suddenly, I feel someone that holds my hand... a girl -wearing a dirty tshirt and some shorts..no shoes- and we kept on walking for a long time... as if we knew each other.

B4 going to this place...b4 deciding to go, I wasnt sure I would have been able to do it. Now i can say that I would do it again and again.

AND YOU, FUCKING POLITICIANS... BE AWARE OF THE NORTH OF OUR COUNTRY..DONT FULL YOUR MOUTHS WITH WORDS OF PROMISES... JUST GO AND SEE...cuz
It's not the same until you see it, until you smell it, until you touch it, until you feel it... until you LIVE it.

a W a y

2003-10-26T02:11:17Z

hi peeps! I'll be away for 10 - 11 days... dont miss me!

luv to all!

Lula

Hey ya!

2003-10-21T14:31:24Z

hey there! I haven't written for some time... I've been really busy at school. Teachers are crazy, as we are going awa next saturday for 11 days, they all want to test us b4 we leave. So... this week:
- MONDAY ---> Law exam
- TUESDAY ---> Maths, Sociology and Spanish exams :S
- WEDNESDAY ---> Logic and Philosophy exams
- THURSDAY ---> Seminario de las Instituciones Políticas Argentinas (history) exam - such a long exam :S -
- FRIDAY ---> Antropology exam

So... 8 exams (not the final ones!!) and I cant concentrate! well well, I will try to pass all of them.

Today I got a letter from luli :D my mome woke me up at 9.00 and gave me the letter. I was deeply asleep cuz i had a party last nite but I immediatly open the eyes :P SHE SENT ME PICCIES!!!!!! YAY! two alanis pics that rockkkkkkkk!!!!!!!! and my pic with Katie! yaaahooo!!!! GRACIAS PUTAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! COMO TE QUIERO GUACHITA! and of course, she also sent me a letter :) thankies lu :***

My mom is a bit fed up ...i dunno who with... with everyone actually. They are organizing our graduation party and i know it's a mess. Some of my class mates have entry exams... and they cant find a date to make it. Well I hope everything will be fine.

UH! last nite I had to complete the request of Buenos Aires's Uni, and now i have to wait till feb to see who i'm going to live with and where. If they put me downtown, I'll live with my two friends, and if I have to go to Belgrano, then I'll live alone OR with my aunt. I think for the first months I'll have to live with her, and then, later on... I can go alone if i want.

Okkie dokkie, I have to revise now! see u all around later! xxoo

camping mode

2003-10-12T01:38:06Z

im going camping again.... it's scary this time...

HEY HAVE U ALL SEEN THE NEW STYLE!! claps claps claps to mari!!!!!! yay!!! thankies sweetie...it looks awesome :D OBRIGADA!

hey g2g now... im going out!

RIO *PART THREE

2003-10-09T19:13:13Z

I was so close... soooooo close. Anyway I had to wait around two songs to see her REALLY close... just in front of my eyes. Hands Clean -she stands there in the mic, playing her guitar-... Everybody sang -so damn cool!- The next song... Simpathetic Character!!!!!! WOo0oo0o0o0w! I took three pics during that song... ah god, what a song!. After SC, This Grudge started... I looked around and Popi was crying :') sweetie :) Gustavo was close to us...still. I was even closer to the stage, almost first row... there was no air to breath! This Grudge helped me to recover a little bit. But then...HEAD OVER FEET! oh god, ppl was excited... she let us sing!, which was... AWESOME cuz everybody did... at this point I had to look thru the screen cuz a tall guy was in front of me... I used his tshirt to dry my face LOL!! hehe. My fav from URS: So Unsexy...yay!!!! she danced with her guitar... that was so nice! hihihih... I want to get a video from the gig!!!!!!!! :'( after So Unsexy....hmmm YOK! pics pics pics! I was too close again :D ...and then UNINVITED -I exploded- that song kills me :'( simply beautiful. I let tears roll over my cheeks. ALANIS WANTED ME TO DIE OR WHAT? after uninvited she sang YOU LEARN!!!!!!!!!!!! I was so fuckin' overwhelmed. During that song she usually runs and she did ...behind her I saw EJ, someone with a camera and KATIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! her aunt! we had talked to her that day or the day b4! yay!! yay!! she is so cool and sweet!
Well, BREAK...maybe it lasted 2 or 3 mins... and she came again :) performed surrendering (that song makes a weird feeling inside me) and IRONIC... :X
She went away... 2 mins, came back. Oo0oo0oOfFeR!! offer! offer! offer! NO-WORDS.

---------------------------------------------------------
THANK YOU
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a guy behind me said in portuguese sth like 'let's jump' and I did. Just me and two of them. 'how 'bout getting off of this antibiotics...' AND I JUMPED HIGHER AND HIGHER, and the guy helped me to jump higher... alanis looked at us and waved... I felt free.....I said to myself 'FREAK OUT LULA!!' and i did... that's what alanis asked for in FOS...she wants ppl to be free during her performances...cuz she is free on stage. And I was... I had the greatest time in my life.

THANK U ALANIS.

*4th part coming soon*

The definitive unpacking stage

2003-10-09T16:46:01Z

I'm back home, finally!! I had a great time in Buenos Aires... the first day I met Popi cuz I had forgoten my camera :$ We had lunch together, chatted a little bit and then I had to go to my uncle's and she had to home too. Then I went to the church -I dunno how, but the saints didnt kicked me out of there lmao- and I was the photographer and cameraman. I had a videocamera and two normal cameras with me. TOO MUCH WORK FOR AN AMATEUR! anyway I think I managed to do it well... the pics rox hehehe cuz I took them with a profesional camera ;)
Then PARTY TIME! ahhhhhh I ate too much! it was a great family gatherin' :D I still have to develope that film.
Well, that nite i phoned nat and we arranged to meet the followin' day. I slept till noon, then we went to a mall -Alto Palermo- had lunch there with my uncle, aunts, cousins, mom, brother... and later on we went to a fuckin' fun park with my bro and uncle. I tried all the games... all of them -roller coasters, hammers, samba, lift, etc... and my brother was chicken shit! so I was alone in most of them. The place sucks... it's rather small and empty? well then my uncle took me to nat's and I stayed there till 00.30 or so. I taught her some cool songs on the guitar and then we punked luli LMAO!! she was angry at us after all but i can't deny it: I HAD SO MUCH FUN... I CRACKED UP! and later on she loved us again hehe WE LOVE U LULI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D
Well, the other day I woke up at 11am, I was alone, so I cleaned and tidy the place, had a bath, went to buy sth to eat, went to a cyber cafe... I wanted to walk cuz If not I'll be fatter and fatter... I need to do more excercise. So I caught my things and went walking around the neighboarhood. I didnt got lost hehe... which is weird *roll eyes*. When I realized I was close to nat's so I called her but I couldnt talk to her... I called her later and she was out with her dog anik -ahhhh lovely dog- so I kept on walking and I found her just on time :D
The other day my mom wanted to buy some stuff for me... she totally rocks! so we went shopping. I wanted to buy some cool jeans but she didnt let me :( and I didnt have enough money to buy them... well next time I will. I bought the clothes for my graduation dress... SO FUCKIN' EXPENSIVE! i didnt want to buy them but my mom did... I didnt want to spend that amount on that thing! I'd rather buy a guitar FOR GOD SAKE!
At 4am I arrived home... slept till noon, then I called my friends... went to hokey trainin' ...went drivin...and nothin' else. Ah I called lucas and he called me but we didnt manage to find each other :(

This is all by now...

Alanis - new journal entry -

2003-10-09T01:24:58Z

October 6th, 2003

Hey there,
Checking in upon returning from South America. Incredible experience, strange and perfect how I feel so at home there. I am still having dreams of being there, and in them I feel invincible and wide-eyed and explorative, three year old style. I think there's something about how touring is being approached now, if not my whole life, that has brought me back to how I used to approach life when I was single digits age. Like an androgynous boy-girl, bite-out-of-lifer, with joy being the gauge as to whether I'll do something (and I do feel joy when I'm working my ass off at times, so it's not like now all I want to do is eat bon bons all the time, although I do love eating bon bons. ;)

Something that I had no intention of responding to or commenting on because it was comedic to me was the story about my having said "thank you brazil" in peru. there is no question that i can be a flake like the best of them. I can claim that I'm disoriented, discombobulated, drunk, flakey and all of the cousins of those words in moments throughout my life. The part that inspired me to write however, is not so much how I came across in these misinformed pieces of news that have traveled across north America with such speed as to come across as something that actually happened and matters (neither being the case), but that it traveled around at such speed and with such tenacity with it being entirely untrue. My thought is that if it can happen with something as silly and innocuous as this, that news in general is something best to be considered as a potentially fictitious option, rather than as fact. This is not something new, I've always thought this, but this last couple of weeks, when I've listened to countless people tell me "wow, must be hard to have fucked up in public like that eh?" all across north America, I've really had it further nailed in. (incidentally, I said "thank you, bless you" at the end of my show in peru (the amount of bigness and love in the room floors me at times) and not "thank you brazil").

It further affirms my thought that everything is perspective, including what I'm writing right now. It affirms that regardless of what I read or am exposed to that I have the ability, opportunity and some might say responsibility to be discriminating and discerning as I take it in. that questioning what the media portrays as real and irrefutable truth will continue to serve me well (whether it's about movie stars or murderers). And that ultimately there is no such thing as "objective truth" anyway. That it's the glasses through which we each look at life that defines what our individual truths are. (and here's to wishing that our individual truths align enough to take the human race and this planet safely into the next decade, let alone millennium!)

Finishing mixing the record over the next couple of weeks. Thinking it will come out in the new year (feb). I love it. And I look forward to sharing it in the spirit that it was written, to define and get a quick snapshot of where I'm at in this particular era of my life.

I love you.

With you.

Hoping this letter finds you well and inspired and self-loved up.

ox

alanis

desde esta atmósfera asfáltica

2003-10-05T02:47:53Z

hi peeps! I'm totally exhausted... I arrived inhere at 7am, met popi at 12.45 =D We went to eat sth, exchanged our missin' things (lmao), and then I had to leave. I was lucky to find her as soon as i arrived to the train station... It was like a great coincidence... we arrived there at the exact same time =)
Now im just too tired, I'm at my uncle's... and tomorrow I'll meet nat =)

Much love and peace (PaZ y aMOrIsseTTE)

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

-LuLa-

RIO *PART TWO

2003-10-03T21:50:17Z

Now let's go on with Rio Part II ... well after five hours of waiting there in the lobby david came and said that we were crazy, and that we should eat, drink sleep and that way we would enjoy the concert the following day. He was really nice.........HE IS SO DAMN GORGEOUS!!!. Well I went to my room and sleeeeeeept. I set the alarm clock -well i had some problems with it but i finally worked it out heee...sorry annie- and I woke up at 8am. I woke Annie up too, but she was tooooo sleepy still. At nine or so mich came and picked us up... we went to the girl's room and picked them up, once all together we went to the lobby, picked mari up...and after all that picking up thing (lmao) we went to the breakfast. We saw Cris with her mom there -her mom rox!!...she is so cool!!!-. The brazilian breakfast is just awesome... it's like our breakfast together with the lunch and dessert too LOL!!!!! Well then popi came with her guitar and we played a lil bit near the pool. It was really nice cuz we all sang and had fun. After that small concert (lmao) we went to put our fancy tshirts on, waited for alanis (once again) and saw the bandmates...(once again lol). We left the hotel and at 2pm we were at the ATL Hall... The line was rather long, but GUSHHHHHHTAVO was already there, he had been in the row for 9 hours already... so we stayed with him (thx gush! u rock man!! OBRIGADAAAAAA!!) I wanted to find Lucas, but I didnt recognize him (shame on me). Later on when I came back to argentina he told me he saw me... hmmmm
Well.... we ate, I made a mess with my coke (LMAO!!!!) and stood on the line until 8pm. Some guys were trying to make a list with the names of the ppl who was there standing on the line... so we would be sort of 'priviledged' at the time of going into the stadium. But that was impossible... anyway I wrote our names on the list. At around 7pm the line disappeared... there was a crowd in the entrance... and we were not in such a good place... security guards divided the ppl in two groups... bad luck again... we were in the second group ='( So we got into the stadium at around 8.30 or so... We went runnin' with mari and her friend (emm i dont remember her name...) A girl took my ticket and gave it back to me so I kept it safe cuz I wanted to give it to Nat when I was back to Buenos Aires. We kept on running, I found Popi, we saw the tshirt's store... but we knew we couldnt buy anything cuz we would loose them during the gig. I finally saw the stage and that Precious Illusions 'Wallpaper'... we were like in the 10th row... I took a pic to the stage but it wasnt developed for some reason.
There were two big screens, they showed some international and brazilian videoclips. One of them was a cover of the argie song 'De musica ligera' from Soda Stereo I think... it was funny to hear the portuguese version =P. Well the ppl was excited already, and they jumped and moved...so with popi we were closer and closer to the stage... in 7th row perhaps.
It was 9 ............................9.30................10..................... a brazilian girl asked me something and I didnt get a shit so I said (or tried to say) 'Eú nao fala portugues' (I dunno how to write it LMAO!) and she was surprised I was coming from argentina just to see alanis.... well that's what I got. And she called another girl who spoke spanish... they were nice at me... and they wanted me to say bad words in spanish... anyway they knew all of them LOL!.......the time kept on passing by......10.20................10.25..........................10.30..........soundcheck.....with mari and gustavo we shouted at EJ and Vince... vince heard us and he waved at Mari =). Five minutes later the bandmates appeared GODDDDDD!!!....i had a nice feeling in my stomach but i needed air...... i needed to breath... I felt dead. Everyone started jumping......screaming, clapping.... the intro started......................... and 10.42 I heard that harmonica sound....................................I was walking on the moon...... I shouted soooooooooo much and jumped.........and when she came to where I was.....straight to my direction......... and saw her so fucking close *was I there?*. All I Really Want was the first song I listened from Alanis' - it's so powerful, and it means a lot to me.... I couldnt stop singing it...and watching at alanis.... The girls next to me looked at me as a weirdo.... they didnt even know the lyrics.... and they pushed me back.......again and again......I was getting angry. 21 Things... just awesome... I was sweating...-i think i lost two kilos after the gig!! lmao- Right Through You.... one of my favs.... HOW MUCH I LOVE THAT SONG!!!.Hand in my pocket: THAT PEACE SIGN... I'D HAD DREAMS WITH THAT!!!!!!! LMAO!! 8 Easy Steps...... the crowd started jumping......and I didnt, so I won some possitions........I was in second row.............and saw alanis so damn close... I wanted to cry...

I'll continue later......Im tired and I need to put my clothes in the suitcase.

TODAY!

2003-10-03T17:07:11Z

*i'll continue with the Second Part later... *

Today I'm travelling to Buenos Aires (once again) and I'll skip school for one more week...YAY!... and what is more.....

I G O T M Y P E R M I S I O N T O G O T O S A L T A

ok... i dunno how... but i did...i finally got it and now I'll spend ten days with my classmates in charity trip to the north of my country... I really need this, I need to be connected with my spiritual side and to share this with my best friends. I can say today is a HAPPY DAY!

see u all around... much love

Lula =)

P.S: HAPPY BDAY ALEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ugh ur old bitchy! hehehe.

RIO DE JANEIRO - a dream come ture *PART ONE

2003-10-02T16:59:15Z

Home sweet home. I'm back after a week... THE WEEK. I left Laboulaye on Wed 24th, arrived at Bs As... met my aunt and my cousin at the bus station, and then I went to leave my suitcases to her appartment. We went to the university, I had to get to know the place. I didnt like it at all... it sucks! but well, i cant ask for anything better, that is the way it is.
Later on in the evening, I met Luli, Popi, Mich and Annie at the Hard Rock. I waited for them for half an hour until they finally showed up. We had a great time there... I forgot to take my camera to the place *argh*. I returned to the appartment very late at night and had a bath... Just a few hours left and I was at the point of taking the plane to Rio.
My uncle fell asleep and we were half an hour late... (sorry guys!!!) But we had enough time to check in and all that stuff. The plane set off and it was there when I realized that what I had imagined and dream of for such a long time was becoming true. I WAS FLYING TO RIO WITH MICH, LULI, POPI AND ANNIE TO SEE ALANIS!!!!!!!! HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!.
We arrived at Rio's aiport and went to the hotel... I saw an alanis poster... GOD!. Then I saw the Intercontiental Hotel and I almost pee my pants... such a huge thing... JUST TOOOOO NICE!. We talked to the girl in the reception to see if we were already checked in, cuz mari and mich had made the booking already... I dunno why, the booking wasnt done and we had to check in again, thx god they had rooms still hehehe. We booked for mari too, even she hadnt arrived yet. We went to mich's room and five mins later Mari called us from the lobby. We went downstairs and met her there together with Cris, Andre and Gustavo :D *rockin' utopians*. We waited for alanis to come... for a long time... and finally the band came... i think it was around 2pm or 3pm (Friday). We were told alanis came through the service entrance... that was bad. ANYWAY i was so excited I had met the bandmates already!!!! god they are so nice... and friendly!!... we saw some guys from the crew as well and KATIE (well at that time we didnt know WHO she was... then we found out she was alanis' aunt).
Well, after such a welcome we went to the Fashion Mall to eat something. And here we started with MacDonald's... and ate there for the rest of the days (now I should go on a desintoxication diet LMAO!).
We were back at the hotel... and stayed there with all the guys to see if alanis came down -she never did :( - We sent her mesagges through different ppl... and a signed tshirt too. THE DAY was gettin' closer... and I was gettin' more and more excited....

this is the end of RIO PART I ... -i'll continue tomorrow-

not over

2003-09-07T17:42:53Z

nothing is over, there's always a seed that keeps life for ages, there's always an 'insert coin' message, there's always a rescue disk, there's always a part of ur heart that keeps 'unconcious feelins' for ever. I'm back with lucas and I still don't know why. I know he loves me and I love him too, but there's something 'uncomplete' ...something that needs to be filled. I like being with him, I feel bliss cuz he's the only one I've ever loved. I'm happy... but confused. I dunno what i want with him, I dont know what will happen... im scared of what's coming. Everything in my mind was so clear, but I screw up. I told him I wanted him to be sure of what he was doing, and he agreed... so we did nothing cuz he wasnt sure... he was sure he loved me but he wasnt sure of what he really wanted... but two hours later we talked again and we did the other way around, we said nothing... and now I dont know what he thinks, what he wants... I'm lost, I need to talk to him.

Well, all this matter happend during a long party in a beautiful farmland... we slept together, which was so beautiful cuz he was so respectful and so nice. We watched the stars and the sunset, It was just amazing.

Now I'm going to release all the things in my mind with my best friend Fran, poor her LOL! see u around on the net soon.

a little 'bout me

2003-09-03T23:13:40Z

I read this in Jose's journal, I've done it in spanish once... i think it's interesting...

TIME STARTED: 19.58
A LITTLE ABOUT ME......
FULL NAME: Lucía Marina Molinari
BIRTHDAY: July 26th, 1986
STAR SIGN: Leo
AGE: 17
WHAT R U LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Tears In Heaven, Eric Clapton
LAST THING U SAID? Vení si queres (come if u want)
WHAT OR WHO IS SITTING NEXT TO U RIGHT NOW? No one
LAST THING U ATE? a cookie
WHO DO U WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF UR LIFE WITH? someone that loves me (and that I love of course)
WHERE DO U WANT TO GO ON UR HONEYMOON? hmmm... somewhere quiete... somewhere in the caribean sea perhaps
FIRST DAUGHTERS NAME? Depends on the last name... (my husband's name)
FIRST SONS NAME? idem previous answer
WHO (or what) MAKES U HAPPY? Being ok with myself, feeling loved, being hugged, spend time with friends and family, to sit on my roof and watch the stars with lucas, listening to good music...(alanis)
WHAT DO U LIKE TO DO? Everything I numbered in the other answer... I like doing the things that makes me happy... I forgot 'playing hockey' and 'travelling' and 'playing the guitar..and sing'
WHO DID YOU LAST PHONE? Lucas
HEIGHT? 1.65 meters
IF U COULD CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT URSELF WHAT WOULD IT BE? I'm ok with myself right now... I wouldnt change anything... my teeths perhaps :P
HAVE YOU EVER HATED ANY PERSON IN YOUR FAMILY? No, not hated, but sometimes i get really mad...

FAVOURITE...............
VEGETABLE: potatos (is it a vegetable?...LMAO)
CANDY: alfajor!!
DRINK? any kind of fruit juice (healthy girl)
MOVIES? City of Angels, 28 days later (LOL), The Lion King (hahaha), What's eating Gilbert Grape?...
BAND? The Beatles, Queen, Sui Generis, RHCP, Evanescence, R.E.M, Radiohead...
SINGER? A-L-A-N-I-S... Elton Jonh, Brian Adams, Alejandro Lerner, Norah Jones, etc
TV SHOW? CQC
JEWELLERY? a nakelace someone gave to me as a gift
NUMBER? 22 (crazy I am)
FAV MONTH? SEPTEMBER!!!!!!!!! joy!!!
NIGHT OR DAY? night
SUN OR RAIN? Rain
SCARY OR HAPPY MOVIES? happy
GOING TO UNIVERSITY? Yes, next year

HAVE YOU EVER...........
LOVED SOMEBODY SO MUCH IT MADE YOU CRY? NO
DRANK ALCOHOL? emmm... a lil
TAKEN DRUGS? no way
BROKEN THE LAW? school laws...I scaped last month
BROKEN A BONE? Yes, 4 times (my ankles)
CHEATED ON TEST? I gave information yes...
SKINNY DIPPED? nops
PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE? lol, no
FLASHED SOMEONE? yes :P
MOONED SOMEONE? emm...not sure
BEEN IN A PHYSICAL FIGHT? No
RODE IN A POLICE CAR?? no
BEEN ON A PLANE? yes
BEEN IN A SAUNA? No
BEEN IN A HOT TUB? no
SWAM IN THE OCEAN? Yeah

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT THE FOLLOWING...........
SCARS? I have a lil one on my elbow... its tiny... in general i thin scars are horrible
ABORTION? depending on the situation... and b4 the 3rd month of course...
COUNTRY MUSIC? I cant stand it
CLASSICAL? good to listen once in five years... but it's great music anyway
OPERA? dont like it
AIRPLANES? ...i have nothing against them
AMUSMENT PARKS? they r ok... I like them

WHAT IS............
YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM? I dont have a good luck charm
WORST SONG U EVER HEARD? Chuchu wa
DO U SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? Nops
MOST PRIZED POSSESSION? guitar

ARE YOU.....
GOOD ACTOR/ACTRESS? hmm...almost
GOOD DANCER? nah
SHY? Sometimes
A GOOD STORYTELLER? nops

HAVE YOU EVER HAD/BEEN..........
CHICKEN POX? NO
A COLD? yes, every year
STITCHES? no
BLOODY NOSE? a few times
SURGERY? Yes, when I was a child I had an accident and it destroyed my nice nose... I had to had surgery
HOSPITALISED? Yes, twice

DO YOU......
ENJOY PARKS? Yes
LIKE SCHOOL? School breaks
LIKE TO PARTY? YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAH!

WOULD YOU.....
EAT A LIVE HAMSTER FOR A MILLION DOLLARS? no way
GO TO A HANSON CONCERT IF YOU HAD A FREE TICKET? NO!!!! I PREFER EATING A HAMSTER
GET ANYTHING PIERCED OTHER THAN YOUR EARS? no
KILL SOMEONE YOU DIDN'T KNOW FOR 15 BILLION DOLLAR? nops... im a peaceful girl

IF YOU WERE STUCK ON AN ISLAND, WHICH PERSON WOULD YOU WANT WITH YOU? lucas
WHAT THREE THINGS WOULD YOU TAKE FROM YOUR HOUSE TO AN ISLAND WITH YOU? Guitar, something to wax and a good book
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE MOTTO? i dont have a life motto...
IF YOU WERE IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE AND IT WOULD HURT THEM IF THEY FOUND OUT, WOULD YOU TELL THEM? i would never hurt anyone on purpose... I would certainly try to be away form him/them?
DO U WANT PEOPLE TO REPLY? yeah why not!
TIME FINISHED? 20.14

sweating

2003-09-02T21:08:28Z

hi peeps, I've just come from the gym lesson and I'm sweating... I'll have a bath immediatly. We played voleyball, and we won (lukily, cuz the team that looses has to tidy the gym). Oh btw, my gym teacher is hot! lmao! my friends die for him!!!!
I did well this morining on the maths exam, well I think I did. I finished and went out the classroom, and sat on a 'long chair'... in two seconds lucas was there. He stole me a ring, and now he wears it. I dunno why he does this (i mean of course I know but I dunno why he doesnt say anything)... today three classmates asked me if I was dating him again (cuz they saw the ring in his finger). I'm fine with him, he called me last night and I went to his place, we talked a lot (as usual, about some rondom stuff but not the really important issues), watched the stars (we always did when we were dating), watched tv, played the guitar, etc. Then I went to the english institute, done the term exams... then I went to fran's and slept there. We talked and she was angry at me cuz im not supposed to talk to lucas anymore. My friends think he is a chickenshit and doesnt deserve me (pf, this is all bullshit). Well, she was mad at me but she understood me... I'm acting with my heart not with my head.

Next Friday we have a looonggg party at one of my school mate's farm. It's a beautiful landfarm, and we're going there very early in the afternoon and leaving the other day in the evening... I didnt get my permission yet... and I fear I wont get it... anyway I'll do my best to go.

f***** school

2003-09-01T19:58:39Z

This week sucks at school, we have at least one exam per day. Tomorrow I have chemestry and maths tests, on wednesday Law, on thursday History and on Friday French. PLUS I have term exams at the English Institute... anyway I dont care about those cuz I never revise for english. Im a bit scared about the history exam, it's too long and I havent paid attention to the teacher in the last lessons... shame on me...
The weekend was quite good, my best friend Fran is back with her boyfriend, so I see her happy again and that makes ME happy too.

yesterday review

2003-08-31T21:24:50Z

I caugh my things and in two minutes I went out. Nati (my english class mate) picked me up and we went to our English Institute. In the way we talked a lot (we always do cuz we see each other twice a week only)... she told me about her new boyfriend and I told her about my issue. She is a great advicer... and she has been through similar experiences... so I really appreciate when she advices me. Then we arrived to the Institue and there were the teachers and Leo, my teacher's son. He had asked me to birng the guitar with me, and of course I did. He is a good guy, I dont know him so well but he seems to be nice (he is not my type anyway) and he sings very well. So we had fun during the trip... it was cool. After an hour and a half of travelling we got to Canals, a small (awfull) city where the play was taking place. The city was just horrible, it sucks more than my city, it was then when I realize how much I love my place! OMG! I woulndt change Laboulaye for any place in this world.
Well, the play was quite good and easy to understand... I was a bit afraid I was not going to understand it... but i finally got it... It wasnt difficult... in some parts I got lost because the main character was just GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...LOL! he was VERY similar to lucas... hmmm...maybe that's why he was so cute. Well, to sumarize it was a good new experience, and one more coach for my ass... Im tired of coaches... but I love knowing new places...
I arrived at 22.00 to Laboulaye, I cooked something and had dinner cuz my mom and bro had already eaten. Then I took a bath and went out.... I went to Fran's and I told myself not to be thinking about lucas during the whole night and to have fun with my friends. And so I did, and I had so much fun.... we danced, talked, met my schoolmates, and well... at the end of the night I realized that I could have fun without him. I felt glad. I will never stop loving him... but I need to learn to live without him... I dont want to hit my head against a wall all of a sudden....

HEY! today I talked to annie and mich!!!! they're together in Luxembourg! I know how much mich's been expecting this...so I hope everything is going fine! :)
I havent seen Luli for some time, I hope she is ok and still alive. That fucker hasnt send me a single mail in weeks! ...but I love her still.

Well, I'm going to eat something now and watch some tennis (yay! Paola Suarez won and Nalbandian is doing a great job.... I think tomorrow Coria will play! ... crossing fingers for all of them -US Open 2003-)